"6 is afraid of 7 cause 7 ate 9"- BNL
I am moving along in my wait and I am still optimistic & relatively stable.
It could be that I'm only half way through my referral wait. Or I could be closer than that. I feel I will hear something in the next 3-4 months. Either way, I feel good. I may be delusional but I haven't gone mental with the wait yet.
That said, for some reason I was all weirdly weepy this week (which sometimes manifests itself with bitchiness, aggressive driving, and the need to snarl at small, furry animals as a defense mechanism).But it wasn't because of the waiting. It's because I'm coming to the realization that I may not be able to take the 6-12 months off for parental leave that I had originally hoped. This makes me very sad. I'm not yet sure how much time I'll take off, but I'm afraid it could just be 3 months. To hopefully mitigate this, I am taking on some consulting work and may get a part-time job for a few months. I SO do not want to use my line of credit to supplement my time off.
That being said, I am still very glad I decided to go to Jamaica for my nephew's wedding this month. Some experiences are priceless in their value. Plus you wouldn't want to hear me sulk while the rest of my family is at the celebration.
I had a great chat with Marelise (new mom to Emma) on Wednesday, and she reminded me that generally speaking, Habesha (Ethiopian) children enjoy being around other kids because they are used to a lot of interaction while at the orphanages and foster homes. So Myfanwy may really enjoy going to daycare sooner rather than later and hanging out with someone other than me all the live long day, every day.
I am very fortunate in that I work from home and can, therefore, be somewhat flexible with my daily work hours. So, between daycare, my mother helping out 1-2x per week, and my schedule, we might still get plenty of good, attachment time together.
Plus, it's not like I'm the only new, adoptive mom who has to go back to work after only a few weeks. Right? Whether you are a birth mom or an adoptive mom, please speak up if you went back to work relatively quickly.
I'm begging you.
