I read two posts this month that really resonated with me.
First, Liz wrote this great post about cleaning up the clutter this month and drawing a clean line under the year.
Me, I also have a few tasks to get done this month so I can face 2009 refreshed, re-energized, and with a clear head:
-repaint kitchen/powder room
-paint nursery
-sort nursery closet
-set up PC/printer in new office space
-sort out basement
-yeah, and assemble the crib. I didn't get around to it this weekend. It was a working weekend for the most part and I ran out of time. I don't want to put it together under stress - that just builds bad juju, so I'll do it next week. Sorry. I will post pics though.
With the exception of the basement, I'm aiming to get all these tasks done this month. I have about 10 days off over Christmas - I'll actually end up working part of the time, but other than that it should be quiet since, unfortunately, most of my family is away this Christmas. The basement is a big job and might have to wait for January. But if I don't start setting a goal to finish some things, I'll be scrambling in a month or two amongst last minute baby preparations & freak out sessions.
Rana also wrote a post (and included a beautiful video) that captured how I've been feeling - about feeling sort of disconnected from things - like from the whole baby thing. It's been such a long time and sometimes I feel as if it's not going to happen - like I'll never hold Myfanwy in my arms. This despite being so close to the end of the wait now. I've had a hard time blogging over the past couple of months, and I think this is part of the reason. I feel sort of removed from my feelings - I almost don't want to examine them too much. I think I'm just tired of navel gazing and I just want to GET. ON. WITH. IT. ALREADY.
So, I'm thankful that Liz and Rana have done the work for me and articulated what's been in my head lately. It helps to know I'm not alone in my feelings.
Thank God for you, all my blogging friends.
