It's been 2 months since I first saw Biset's darling face. Part of me still can't quite believe she is going to be my daughter. That said, MOST of me TOTALLY feels it already. I keep 'seeing' her in the house, wearing her pjs with the Winnie the Pooh feet, a sippy cup of milk in one hand, her bunny dragging on the floor in the other.
That said, after yesterday's STUNNING news, I am again reminded of how unpredictable this adoption process really is. If you are a Canadian PAP or AP, you have probably heard that Imagine Adoption has declared bankruptcy and closed its doors. What this means to the waiting children, their pending parents, and the ET caregivers, I don't fully understand. The questions have not been answered yet. The whole thing is incomprehensible, quite frankly. I do know that I am still physically sickened at this news and my heart still aches for everybody affected by this gawd awful turn of events. I went to bed hoping it would all be a bad dream today. Alas, it is not.
To my family and friends outside the adoption circle, everything with my agency, CAFAC, seems to be fine; business as usual. But I still worry - not because of this bad news, per se, but just because you never know day-to-day what is going to happen. Until Biset is here in my arms, I will not stop worrying and being a bit paranoid.
The events of yesterday are a reminder to count my blessings and be VERY THANKFUL that my motherhood dream will still come true. I will keep my head down and slog through to the end, no matter how long it takes. As long as I get to the finish line with Biset.
For those of you who have been devastated by the news, my heart truly goes out to you, and I hope that you WILL see your dreams come true as well. To my personal friends affected by this, I wish I had the words to console you. For those of you waiting for your visas who have decided to grab the bull by the horns and travel NOW, I hope that you are able to fully cherish those first precious moments when you see your children.
selam
